Well I’ve been busy lately getting lessons for new stuff on the Mac and on my new i phone. It’s been a lot of fun and I’m enjoying it. Husband has been working a lot which is good because I still don’t have a job. I’m getting very excited about my trip to Indiana, I haven’t been to see some of my family and friends for 25 yrs now. Nothing else going on and just trying to save money to get my car’s transmission fixed and running again. I check in again later, hope all is well with everyone.

Well I had to move my sister back to Indiana, but she seems to be doing well. I still don’t have a job and its been over a year, and no unemployment either. Still on med’s and they have been working on that because some days it just doesn’t work and I get really depressed more than other days. Been keeping up with my friends and family on Facebook which helps. My son is doing awesome as usual and my husband is still around and working. Not sure on that whole situation but he does put up with me and that says a lot. Had joined a new gym in March and was doing really good but now have slacked off on going but use my new elliptical at home that a friend gave me and it doesn’t cost anything like the gym does. Got my blood pressure down but haven’t lost to much weight, but I keep trying. Hope to have a job soon and looking at going back to school and learn a new career but not sure yet. Trying to save money to get my car running again but hard to do with no job. At least I’m healthy and have a home to live in and I’m not in the streets. I guess that’s it for now and will try and blog more often…..

Its been a real long time b/c Ive been so busy looking for a job and helping my son with his business. I only stayed in the new house for a few months, the landlord didn’t like to fix stuff. So I got lucky and moved back to my old house that Ive been in for 6 years. My sister came back to live with me for a few months and that didn’t work again. Still not job but have been going to the gym and trying to keep myself straight, trying not to drink and taking my med’s. Most days I’m good and happy and things are looking so much better, enjoying my time on Facebook with my old friends. Going to try and post more and hope some of my friends will join in…Bye for Now

Its been a long while this time. I still dont have a job and I had to go back on meds after loosing it 2 months ago. Doing much better and life is good. Moved to a larger nice house in a fab neighborhood. My son is well and doing great with his business and other job. Its hard not talking with my sis that moved down in feb. b/c of her issues its hard to deal with her, even though I love her very much. Anniversary date is getting closer to the year that my other sis has been gone and thats a real hard one to deal with. But it will be okay and life goes on…

It seems that I never have the time or the energy to keep up with this. But Im once again without a job and it was due to my panic/anxiety attacks. I was out on dr’s care and my work fired me. Now I have to find a new job when there aren’t any. But im hanging in there, even with all the stresses. Not much else to say for now…

I haven’t logged in in awhile. Been very busy and been spending alot of time on facebook. I moved my only sister left in with me from up north. She is still here in spite of having cancer. My dog of 13 years died on friday and that was a hard thing. Last Tuesday an old friend passed away and it just seems so dismal at times. But Im off meds again and the doctor is monitoring that to see if I can make without them. Hope all is well for a little while and just keeping it real…

Well life is never WHAT U MIGHT think But regardless of your spouses failures. God would know what 2 do.. your awesome i want to u see him…Conrats to my friends Keith & Linda hope ur well and happy…..

After all these I started finding some of my old friends from High School… My sis always thought she had the best of both worlds…But she realized that she was only as great as those who supported her….

Its my 42nd b-day today and Im still here. Have alot to be thankful for but I forget to do so. Im always obsessing about the little things. Miss my sister alot and Im getting closer to the only sis that I have left. My husband has made a big turn around and has lasted the last few months making changes to keep our marriage together. Cody is still awesome & doing well for himself. We will see what 2009 will bring for me and my family..bye for now!!!

What can i say except life stinks and sucks and we go on everyday…i luv my husband and my son/ but even my family and i still feel sad everyday. i dont know why but my sisters death seams to effect me more than any other family member. I guess b/c she was my best friend and i looked out for her always or so i thought/ I luv both of my sisters like there was no tomorrow and that is such a hard thing to let go. I have done this more than once in my lifetime being the oldest of 4 girls with a single mom, but all from the same father. Our mother wasn’t a whore but never felt the love and companionship that she felt she needed. Anyway my mom loved us and just wanted a man to love us as his own. Never happened even way back then b/c men are perverts but anyway i would like to just remember that i loved my mom & respected her for what she tried to do. My sisters and I are stronger than we think and we should always believe in ourselves b/c we are all that we have.. time to go for now and love the family that i have left….