Well its been awhile cuz Ive been so busy with work and trying to advance up in position and pay…Checking again on going back to school so I can finish what I started so long ago..wanna make more money for my old age…Been seeing several men and its been going good, they are still all liars and manipulators but I enjoy each of them in a different way..Im sure not gonna live my life in regret for sure. That’s why I dont have a bucket list but a no regret list and a OMG list!!!!!  That’s it for this time cuz I have alot to do today and a date later this afternoon!!!!

Well what can I say other than Im back to myself after being in hospital. Last of meds today and check up tomorrow then back to work. Cant wait looking forward to it and moving toward having a status of full time would be great for money and benefits, but I will right now just be happy having the job…My life is still going great Ive lost 61 pounds now and this is the smallest Ive been in 7-8 years, thank you Lord for your help and guidance and thank you to my friends and family that has supported me along this journey. Still crazy and enjoying the younger man for now. Im so not ready for commitment or a relationship so being close to him as friends and just enjoying each other without being controlling is so freakn fabulous. One day I might change but right now I just love being free and doing what I want when I want and how I want..My life is all about ME for once selfish or not!!!!!

Well things are going well have new job and worked it two weeks before getting sick and being in the hospital. Im suffering from a severe case of anemia and had to have 2 blood transfusions. Then my kidneys wasn’t working properly so meds to fix that and have to drink more water at work. Gallbladder has a 1cm stone in it but they decided no surgery right now because there is not fluid or inflammation around it, but no more fat, greasy fried foods…I have at least done well loosing weight Im at a 61 pound loss now and the doctor said that was good and keep it up…My life is still fabulous and going so well and Im so very happy, Im enjoying having the new man in my life now for a month and thinks are progressing. We have known each other for many months but just saw each other once in awhile and now its exclusive.  My Ex is happy with his new life too and I think its great that we can both move on and be happy again. Cody has been interviewing for a new job and has made it through two interviews and will know something in the next few days but its looking good. Hope it all goes well and I pray that it does, I cant go back to work till late next week when doctor releases me after the rest and meds… Well thats it until next time…

Well I finally got a job and have orientation this week, I cant wait…Been so busy with life lately. Ive got me a new man and he is 8 years younger and Im loving it. He makes me feel so awesome and great about myself and gives me the boost to my confidence that I need. Im still a work in progress but I sure know who I am and what I want in my life for the first time in a long time. I so let myself disappear and dwindle down to a nobody or nothing and I did it to myself for sure. I will never again let myself get so low and depressed. I have been off meds now for 1 1/2 years and Im doing great. I pray each and everyday for God’s guidance and love which is and always there even when I didn’t use it or listen to it. My life is coming full circle in so many ways. I still miss my family that is gone now and especially my sister Cynthia but she is with me each and everyday, and I have the blessing of being a part of her children’s lives and I love that. My son is still and always be my biggest accomplishment in life and he always makes me a part of his…I was truly blessed with the most amazing kid and I tell everyone that he is…God did grant me the chance to be married even though not always a good one but made me who I am and I have no regrets. I love and will always love my ex-husband and always wish him happiness, he was and is my always and forever but now just a friend that I grew with not a partner. May his life become as wonderful and beautiful as mine is…that’s it catch up again and LOVING MY LIFE!!!!!

Not to much going on but the usual of looking for work and getting things organized for CPC Studios/Photography. Son is still working but one job is coming to an end soon. Having a good time dating and getting to know myself and how I want to live my life. Divorce papers should be ready soon for me to sign and then it will be over this month some time. 26 years over and done with just a signature, wow!!! Life is going so great if I could just get job, but I did decide that Im going back to school, just have to get signed up for grants and student loans. Im gonna finish was I started so many years ago and get a degree in Business Administration.

Well been very busy looking for work still. My personal life is so absolutely crazy and awesome right now. Been going out and seeing several men right now just enjoying this single life…Wow never thought it would be so great and fabulous. Met a few that there was no connection and we are just friends, but a couple thats still sticking around. One in particular right now and he is so good to me its unreal, he brings me so many laughs and smiles. He also appreciates me and treats me with respect and with a caring heart. He for sure brings me good luck, I never win anything but I won Mardi Gras Queen saturday  night at my local hang out. I even got a real crown not a little toy, I was already feeling so amazing before getting that win but it sure was the icing on the cake…Still working out and trying to loose some more weight to add to the already great weight loss success so far. God had truly blessed me in my life and especially recently. Well not to much else going on but Cody is madly in love with his girlfriend Tressa and I can say that I love her too, she really is so wonderful and caring and seems to love him very much. So until next time!!!

Okay so I’ve been busy still looking for a job, had a good interview on Friday so I’m hopeful.  Cody is still working constantly and then spending as much time as he can with his girlfriend. Oh the young love, I remember what that was like even though it was a long time ago. Taking my life day by day and enjoying it without being depressed anymore. I have been having a great time each week with my friends and some new people in my life. Still working out and trying to loose some more weight. I’m happy and thankful each and everyday for all of the good things in my life. Much better than in years past because I was so depressed and wouldn’t move on past my sister’s death. Now that I have dealt with that and the loss of my dad(grandpa) I can move on and grow within myself. Been separated for 6 months now as of last week and that’s the longest that we’ve been apart, but we are good friends and that’s a good thing after 26 years. Well until next time!!!

Well its the second week of the New Year and things are still going okay. My birthday was okay and then I got to see an unexpected friend and spend time with them and I greatly enjoyed it. Still looking and applying for jobs and praying something comes very very soon. My son is still working and has a new girlfriend he is madly in love with. This is a wonderful thing and Im glad he is so happy. Still working on loosing weight and Im down by 53 pounds now and still going. Lots of changes in my life in the last 5 1/2 months of being separated by all is good. Well until next time…..<3<3<3

I cant believe that this year is almost over, so much in my life has changed. Things are getting better each day and I know that the new year will bring me a good job. I have found out who my true friends are and the ones that mean the most to me. I have found that Im stronger than I ever knew that I could be. Im finding out who I am as a person and I havent known  that for a long time. I am loving being single and looking forward to the new men that I will meet and have met recently. I have a big weekend ahead and then the new year begins and we will see what unfolds. Thanks to my biggest support which is my son….Until the new year !!!!!

Well I enjoyed seeing my step daughter and her  family it was a great afternoon. I spent yesterday with my son who turned 22 and we had a family dinner with his dad. It was a nice evening and it was good to see them together. Looking forward to the weekend for a party and to see my brother that I never see and just enjoy. Looking forward to the new year to continue on my journey to the new me, new life, and hopefully a new job. I am looking forward to the single life and what it will bring knowing that I did all that I could do and then some to make my marriage work. So we are both different people and deserve to be happy in whatever we choose to do. Thats it for now more next week.