Hello I’m Back!!!

It’s been awhile again…I forget to keep up with this thing. But I’m going to try and start making this a priority.

Life is good I guess, I mean I don’t get depressed as bad as I used too. I have my good days and bad days just like anyone else I guess. But overall I have been a lot better and 9 months without medication. I’ve been able to do this myself and in part by daily guidance and prayer from my Lord up above. He has always been a part of my life, but for a long time I didn’t make him first or keep in touch with my faith. Poor reason but nevertheless very true. My son is always and inspiration to me, and he keeps me going. Still unemployed which weighs heavily on my heart and mind. I need to be able to take care of myself and I’m not able to do that at this time or for the last 26 months. I know there are others in the same situation and I feel for you, but I need something to keep me going financially and spiritually. I’m reading a book called “crush it” which is helping in finding my passion and making it work for me. I have always loved music and it has always been a part of my life. But how to make a living at it is another question, still working on that too  figure it out. I just wish something would come along to make a paycheck every week to help until I figure it out. Now about my weight, well I have lost a little but nothing major and it’s been still a difficult road. I’m just out of control sometimes and I can’t stop myself  from trying to fill a void with food. I’m very aware of what I’m doing to myself but sometimes I just can’t stop myself anyway. I love to sabotage myself  in many ways, and think a lot of us do this in some way. I will get through this just like I always do. Well that’s it for now and I’m going to seriously try and do this more often….