What’s Up

It’s been awhile, I get so distracted and forget to keep up with this. I recently had a lot of changes. In the beginning of July I moved back up north to spend time with family and get away from everything that I thought was causing me so much stress and depression. Little did I know that it went much deeper than that. I learn more about myself and my family everyday. I am no longer being medicated because I’ve decided that once upon a time I could do it myself and with God’s help and my own strength I will fix myself. I’m doing better every day, it will be much better when the with drawls are over. But other that that things are looking up and I’m keeping myself busy and making the necessary changes. I found out that the life that I thought that I had up north growing up is not the same as I remember it being. I found that growing up and then actually being an adult and viewing the situations are not quite the same. Okay laugh if you will that this sounds so stupid but I needed to realize this. My adult life is what I made it, with a series of many years of choices. I am the only one that can change what or who I don’t like about it.  I’m on the path of self realization or something like that. I did enjoy the time with my family and I needed that, but I did miss my son and husband so much. I’m learning to appreciate what I have and not always look for the negative and make myself depressed about every little thing. I decided that each day when I wake I remember that I’m alive really alive and that I choose to be here and I choose to make my life great. Well thats it for today and I will try and blog more often, this might help me more than you know….

One Response to “What’s Up”

1. Danielle says:

   September 14, 2010 at 2:17 pm

   Rhonda,
   This is awesome and you have no idea what you have just helped me with. God works in mysterious ways my friend. I am glad you are doing better and maybe one day we can go have lunch together. Talk to you soon