Life’s uncertianty

What can i say except life stinks and sucks and we go on everyday…i luv my husband and my son/ but even my family and i still feel sad everyday. i dont know why but my sisters death seams to effect me more than any other family member. I guess b/c she was my best friend and i looked out for her always or so i thought/ I luv both of my sisters like there was no tomorrow and that is such a hard thing to let go. I have done this more than once in my lifetime being the oldest of 4 girls with a single mom, but all from the same father. Our mother wasn’t a whore but never felt the love and companionship that she felt she needed. Anyway my mom loved us and just wanted a man to love us as his own. Never happened even way back then b/c men are perverts but anyway i would like to just remember that i loved my mom & respected her for what she tried to do. My sisters and I are stronger than we think and we should always believe in ourselves b/c we are all that we have.. time to go for now and love the family that i have left….