Well after the stuff with my sister and being back on meds. I put the gym on hold for now but I will be going back soon. I finally got sick of my selfish, alcoholic husband and gave him the boot. Especially after I found out that he was still married to another woman when he married me 22 yrs ago. Lies and lies and cheating and being drunk and broke. Enough!! I am taking charge of my life and will figure out a way to make it all work. Miss my family alot and would move back home if the job market was better. But I have a fabulous job here so I will stay for now. Looking foward to each day now and that’s a big improvement. Well more later!!!!

Well I just got back from Indiana, where I had to bury my sister. She was very sick and couldn’t stay any longer. Really depressed but thank god for meds. Quit going to gym, just to tired and don’t really care about it. Going to die one day no matter what size I am. Loving my new job and the company is full of great people to work with. Spent alot of time with my family in the last week and makes you very grateful for them and the time you have. Well thats it for now!!!

Well its been awhile and not alot of changes. Still going to the gym and the only progress is that I’m still going. haha!!
Got more bad news last night to add to all the heartache of not having a job. My sister is very sick and I’m mean really sick not just your average not feeling well. But she is strong and has overcome alot of obstacles and I know she will be fine. I just got a call and I finally got hired for a new job and doing on a little of what I have been trained to do, and so the stress level will not be to bad. But other good things have been going on too. Earlier this month I went to my first concert and I went with my son. It was the ultimate and awesome to say the least. I went to the Projekt Revolution Tour, It was 10 bands and the main feature was Linkin Park. They are fabulous and it was a great time. I’m looking forward to my new job and so many things are going to be looking up with me having employment again. I will still go to the gym but now after work so I will have to adjust to that but its all good!!!

I’ve been going to the Gym quite regularly and its going good. The only bad thing is I gained 10 pounds, but that’s b/c I won’t quit drinking. So guess what? I’m going to do my best to quit and for more that just loosing weight. Feeling better about alot of things. Having a career is not one of them at this time b/c of the recession. And then my husband had another heart attack 3 weeks ago. So I really have to think about my future, b/c who knows if he will be around. One bright thing in my life is my son, and as a Mom I think he is awesome. But he really is the light of my life. He has really done well for himself considering all the problems he had in school. But he turned out to be amazing and that’s to say the least. Well that’s all for now, I’m just hanging in and at least I’m not as depressed.

Well, I have been going to the gym and things are going great. Once again I’m starting to find the old me. Positive outlook and depression is taking a back seat. I’m getting stronger and better with each passing day. Still have some bad habits to break but all in good time. I beat my time on the treadmill today and I’m feeling fabulous about that. I know that each day I will get stronger and more like myself. Gotta go lots to do!!!!!!!

Yesterday I joined the gym and today was my first day. Cody and I went around and looked at all the equipment and used a few things. Then we meet with a personal trainer, I picked him out after observing him with several different people. Rich seamed approachable and was willing to answer a couple of questions. That lead us into choosing him as out trainer. Things are looking better and today was a good day. (I’m physced) Cody and I have decided that since we have no health insurance and both require meds for depression and anxiety. That we would take the health approach, after all 22 yrs ago that’s what I knew best, so here we go!!!!!!