RoxyIce

Its been a long while this time. I still dont have a job and I had to go back on meds after loosing it 2 months ago. Doing much better and life is good. Moved to a larger nice house in a fab neighborhood. My son is well and doing great with his business and other job. Its hard not talking with my sis that moved down in feb. b/c of her issues its hard to deal with her, even though I love her very much. Anniversary date is getting closer to the year that my other sis has been gone and thats a real hard one to deal with. But it will be okay and life goes on…

It seems that I never have the time or the energy to keep up with this. But Im once again without a job and it was due to my panic/anxiety attacks. I was out on dr’s care and my work fired me. Now I have to find a new job when there aren’t any. But im hanging in there, even with all the stresses. Not much else to say for now…

I haven’t logged in in awhile. Been very busy and been spending alot of time on facebook. I moved my only sister left in with me from up north. She is still here in spite of having cancer. My dog of 13 years died on friday and that was a hard thing. Last Tuesday an old friend passed away and it just seems so dismal at times. But Im off meds again and the doctor is monitoring that to see if I can make without them. Hope all is well for a little while and just keeping it real…

Well life is never WHAT U MIGHT think But regardless of your spouses failures. God would know what 2 do.. your awesome i want to u see him…Conrats to my friends Keith & Linda hope ur well and happy…..

After all these I started finding some of my old friends from High School… My sis always thought she had the best of both worlds…But she realized that she was only as great as those who supported her….

Its my 42nd b-day today and Im still here. Have alot to be thankful for but I forget to do so. Im always obsessing about the little things. Miss my sister alot and Im getting closer to the only sis that I have left. My husband has made a big turn around and has lasted the last few months making changes to keep our marriage together. Cody is still awesome & doing well for himself. We will see what 2009 will bring for me and my family..bye for now!!!

What can i say except life stinks and sucks and we go on everyday…i luv my husband and my son/ but even my family and i still feel sad everyday. i dont know why but my sisters death seams to effect me more than any other family member. I guess b/c she was my best friend and i looked out for her always or so i thought/ I luv both of my sisters like there was no tomorrow and that is such a hard thing to let go. I have done this more than once in my lifetime being the oldest of 4 girls with a single mom, but all from the same father. Our mother wasn’t a whore but never felt the love and companionship that she felt she needed. Anyway my mom loved us and just wanted a man to love us as his own. Never happened even way back then b/c men are perverts but anyway i would like to just remember that i loved my mom & respected her for what she tried to do. My sisters and I are stronger than we think and we should always believe in ourselves b/c we are all that we have.. time to go for now and love the family that i have left….

Well I said goodbye to a good friend this week. She was 34 years old and depression took its toll and she ended her life. So sad and she left behind a little one. I get so depressed myself but I would not end my life. Too many get hurt and don’t understand. I got my first Mercedes Benz and I’m excited about that. It’s and old one and I’m fixing her up but its great. Life is good right now and nothing else to report about…Till next time…

Well I talked big on my last entry but my husband begged to come back and stay. He says we are married no matter what the attourney might say. But he has made a big change and has been sticking to it. I told him that it was that or be gone. I have managed to pay my bills by myself and have money to spend the way I want. I’m starting to be happy and find myself again. Miss my sis alot but getting closer to the other sis at this point. Today is a good day and we will see how it goes. later!!!!

Well after the stuff with my sister and being back on meds. I put the gym on hold for now but I will be going back soon. I finally got sick of my selfish, alcoholic husband and gave him the boot. Especially after I found out that he was still married to another woman when he married me 22 yrs ago. Lies and lies and cheating and being drunk and broke. Enough!! I am taking charge of my life and will figure out a way to make it all work. Miss my family alot and would move back home if the job market was better. But I have a fabulous job here so I will stay for now. Looking foward to each day now and that’s a big improvement. Well more later!!!!